Anxiety rising, panic attack imminent. Spent too much time practicing for an unpredictable future. Everything is due; the work, the bills, the assignments. Calendar is too full, it's there to have the information visible, but still trying to memorize all 30 days. Got a client to meet, a lesson right after. A paper to edit,… Continue reading Notes That Silence The Loud Mind; Music Monday
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Living Life By Music
(A warning: This post contains some talk about depression and suicidal thoughts) I was hit by a bit of inspiration and have decided to start a new thing. I'm thinking: Music Monday. I know, how original. Every Monday I do a song lyric analysis or deep music study of whatever song I'm feeling for the… Continue reading Living Life By Music
Self Employed: Is It The Right Choice
At the beginning of the year 2021, I had a really difficult time with my work situation. So many things were happening at Walmart. It was nearing the anniversary of the shooting that occurred in the store in 2020. There were major changes in the department management that most associates didn't like, prompting many good… Continue reading Self Employed: Is It The Right Choice
Surviving, Again
It's been a year since the shooting that happened during a completely normal nightshift. Last year, mid January, a customer was attempting to break into locked cases in electronics. When he got caught, he yelled at the manager for a few minutes before existing the store and firing at the front grocery doors. I've learned… Continue reading Surviving, Again
The Dangers of Conservative Religion
I've briefly mentioned my issues of a particular Chi Alpha Campus Ministry. I've begun to experience some problems with leaving this group. Thankfully I've had luck with breaking away; the texts begging me to come back have subsided. However, I'm experiencing the unseen consequences of this. I have nightmares about a lot of things; fights… Continue reading The Dangers of Conservative Religion
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